You know, when I finally passed the stupid Bar Exam, I thought I'd finally be able to sleep the sleep of the righteous. If anything, my sleep patterns have gotten worse. I feel like I'm living one of the Rozerem commercials, except I don't have Abraham Lincoln or talking beavers. I do have this one reoccurring nightmare though, and it's got to mean something. It goes like this: I'm back in school, and all of a sudden I realize that one course I haven't gone to for half a semester, and chances are I'm not going to pass it. The other course needs a paper done the next day, and not only do I not know what I'm supposed to be writing on, I haven't a clue what I'm going to write. All I have is absolute panic that I'm not going to graduate. At that point I usually wake up. I have degrees now. I'm not in school. I'm not sitting for exams. This has got to stop.
Labels: nightmare, sleep
I did come back from vacation, and sure enough, work was still here. And, it seems the bad weather returned with us. It rained far too much yesterday, which made coming back in today all that much worse. That being said, I'm doing okay. A little tired, no sunburn, and two rounds of golf under my belt. I went to Sonic, I went to Waffle House, and heard the word y'all alot. Great place to visit...but I wouldn't want to live there. I'll take snow and ice and hills. I'm used to it.
Labels: job, vacation
It's been a lovely couple of days on vacation. Plenty of sun, I'm a bit pinker than I was before. Blistered my feet in walking way too much in my sandals. I'm still feeling the aftereffects from that. And, it seems that in making some breakfast reservations yesterday that the woman got the impression that we were on our second honeymoon. That gained us a free cake (luckily, no singing) at our character breakfast experience this morning. April...September, what's a few months among friends? Oh, and did I mention the Garmin? We rented from Avis, and the commercial where the guy professes his love to the GPS computer is so very true. She found us a golf course (it could be a he, but it defaulted to a female voice), our hotel, and some lovely Mexican food. It's so much more relaxing when the computer is doing all the navigating.
Labels: GPS, vacation
I love words with random apostrophes. Nor'Easter is one of those words. And it shows who isn't from the area when they pronounce it North-Easter. Ah, regional slang. We came through it relatively unscathed...our yard's a slushy mess, but not one power blip or even loss of satellite signal. So who cares? I'm leaving for vacation on Wednesday! And thanking my lucky stars we didn't fly out yesterday or today. Midweek is a good thing. Now, if I can only get my work life in order before then, it'll truly be a vacation. Ahhhhh.
Labels: job, weather
Today was also a crappy day. And just when I got really down on myself, I read about this guy. I guess, no matter how bad my day is, it isn't bad enough to make want to jump out a 69th floor window. Then again, I work on the ground floor, and my window doesn't open. So even if I wanted to leap out a window, I couldn't.
The days are interminable. Each day is like the last. I look at numbers and spreadsheets, and I don't understand them. At this stage of things, it just makes me angry. Angry that I went to law school and ended up doing this. Just plain angry at my job. I feel whatever skills I have wasting away since I'm not a lawyer. Angry that I just started this job and am not doing what I thought I'd do. Angry that I'm stuck now. I hate coming to work in the morning. This wasn't supposed to happen. What happened?
The three day weekend was delightful, but I'm exhausted. We did a small road trip over the weekend, mostly because there wasn't a heck of alot of things that could be done at home. Yard work? Way too cold outside! It's April? Really? I don't believe you. In our driving I discovered that driving at night on unfamiliar interstates freaks me out beyond belief. At one point I thought I was having a panic attack. It didn't used to be this way. I'm not sure exactly what was causing it either, but that was awful. Living in absolute fear that I'd smash the car up. Never so glad to get home.
Labels: driving, weather
Today's the last day of work for the week! So glad about that. Honestly, my job involves more math than law. I really didn't go to law school to be an accountant. So each day I try and psyche myself up for more number crunching, and to be honest, it's not working. How do you get psyched for number crunching? Excel and I have an understanding, but it doesn't help me with my outcome. Here a sum, there a sum, everywhere a sum sum. Anyway, I hope you have a lovely holiday weekend. And hey, I'm giving some thought to a request only day before I leave on vacation...so if you have any burning questions you ever wanted to ask me, here's your big chance!
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It's that time again folks, Beanie has survived another year at this whole blog thing. Who would have thunk four years! Though, I need to revamp my template, since it seems the great Blogger switcheroo has tanked my archives. I made a fix, but now I have this ginormous list of archives at the bottom of the page. I need to move to a three column template that is aesthetically pleasing to me. In the meantime, keep on keeping on people. And thanks for reading!