About Me

name: Beanie
age: 35
email: bbbeans@yahoo.com


AT THE MOMENT

Book: New York by Edward Rutherfurd

Music: 1999 by Prince

Mood: The current mood of bbbeans@yahoo.com at www.imood.com

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Teahouse Blossom
CrimLaw
SilentService
May It Please The Court
Blonde Justice
Ernie The Attorney
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Lessig Blog
Evan Schaeffer's Legal Underground
Jeremy's Weblog
Begging The Question
The Neutral Zone Trap
the imbroglio
Biting Tongue
Peanut Butter Burrito
Legal Quandary
In It But Not Of It
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A New Duck
Just Playin'
Res Ipsa Eloquent
How Appealing
Scoplaw
Lag Liv
Law v. Life
IPTAblog
Lowering the Bar
Bag and Baggage
The Uncivil Litigator
Will Work For Favorable Dicta
Transmogriflaw

ON THE WAY

Divine Angst
Frequent Citations
Magic Cookie
Knocked Up (and in Law School)
Butterflyfish
Mommy on the Floor
PT-LawMom
Thanks, But No Thanks
Law Ingenue
No. 634
think like a woman. act like a man.

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the underwear drawer
Do Not Overmix
Little Lost Robot
PostSecret
Overheard in the Office
JD2B

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Screaming Bean
Saturday, November 19, 2005

Two days later, and now what? I can't say I'm angry. Knowing my situation going in to this I thought maybe a 50/50 shot. And so the coin came up tails instead of heads. I have been trying to put into words how I feel now, after having seen the results on paper (yes, the mail was that fast). Best I can think of is that I feel like a slowly deflating balloon. The air seems to be gone, and it seems tiring to do anything. I haven't really cried, but it's hard to get my thoughts together. I need to develop a gameplan here, but I'll be damned if I know what it should be. I've heard I shouldn't have a problem next time, but here I thought I really didn't have a problem this time and was sadly deluded. What makes this any different? Where exactly did I go wrong that will make this any better this time? It's like law school all over again. And seeing my less than stellar performance that I could never seem to fix, this seems rather hopeless. Will working harder be for naught like it was in school? No matter how you cut it, will it all come to mediocrity? Who knows.

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