Screaming Bean |
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
After reading Sua Sponte's lovely experience at her Moot Court induction reception, I've come to the conclusion that I'll just have to live vicariously through the great experiences of others. I survived another round of "I really shouldn't be here"-itis, which has been rearing it's head every Tuesday this semester. It occurs between the "I don't understand what's going on" and "This is boring me to tears" mood swings. Of course, the exam cloud that is hanging over me is not improving my mood, and even getting another interview for a fall semester gig didn't do it. I keep seeing a future in which I do actually get into Witness Examination Skills class, but seemingly fail out of school...leaving a slot open for some other high achiever who is not me. Knowing the fate of 30 of my ex-classmates, how do I know this won't happen to me? I have no confidence in my abilities, or in anything I learned this semester...it did not serve me well last semester to think I knew anything...so perhaps if I go in thinking I'm an idiot, my luck will change?
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