The holidays are here. How do I know this? It's not because of Black Friday, Cyber Monday, or marble falling off the Supreme Court. I just saw my first Chia Pet commercial. Yes, you too when faced with not knowing what to buy for someone can buy them some algae and a terra cotta animal. I know you've done it before...I know I have. Question is, will you do it again?
Yes, I have mentioned pie before, but since I never put up pictures of my pie prowess I wanted to show you all that in fact Beanie does make pie. And so I bring you...pie.
I'd like to take a moment and honor the passing of one of the great Americans. Ruth M. Siems, aged 74, the creator of Stove Top stuffing. Ironic that she would pass away the day before Thanksgiving, but when you eat your stuffing tomorrow, think of her. Happy Thanksgiving folks.
I'm marshalling my forces, in hopes of trying to develop a plan by the weekend. I have the power, it's a matter of tapping the will and following through. Trying to do forensics on my previous experience has led me to one inescapable conclusion. I didn't know enough law and couldn't communicate what I did know. So while I'm not going back to brass tacks, it's time to fill in the gaps and practice. I guess it's a good thing I don't have a job right now, but I need to bring in some cash since I'm in repayment now. The loan companies don't care that I failed, they just care that I pay.
Two days later, and now what? I can't say I'm angry. Knowing my situation going in to this I thought maybe a 50/50 shot. And so the coin came up tails instead of heads. I have been trying to put into words how I feel now, after having seen the results on paper (yes, the mail was that fast). Best I can think of is that I feel like a slowly deflating balloon. The air seems to be gone, and it seems tiring to do anything. I haven't really cried, but it's hard to get my thoughts together. I need to develop a gameplan here, but I'll be damned if I know what it should be. I've heard I shouldn't have a problem next time, but here I thought I really didn't have a problem this time and was sadly deluded. What makes this any different? Where exactly did I go wrong that will make this any better this time? It's like law school all over again. And seeing my less than stellar performance that I could never seem to fix, this seems rather hopeless. Will working harder be for naught like it was in school? No matter how you cut it, will it all come to mediocrity? Who knows.
Happy Birthday to my Mom. For her birthday we went out for Japanese food and then I found out I didn't pass the bar exam. I really debated with myself whether I should post it or not, but hell, they'd post it sooner or later. Guess my school was right after all, I am an idiot. I won't know where exactly I went wrong until I get the paperwork, but in the meantime I get to queue up and do this all over again. I'm sort of in a fog right now. I expect a big told you so any moment now. Aw hell, just smite me now and get it over with okay?
Two posts in one day...oooh...Beanie's on a roll now. I had to tell you about this. Perhaps you have seen the commercial for Burger King that has the Stormtrooper lighting the burger grill with a blaster rifle? But have you gone to the website at the end of the commercial? Yes, even better than Subservient Chicken, now you can play 20 questions with Darth Vader. I was actually able to beat him after a couple tries, but his taunts are worth the ride. Go ahead, challenge Darth. I know you wanna.
Today I had the opportunity to go out to lunch with a fellow alumni. She was very pleasant, took the time to answer all my questions and even bought me lunch cause I'm unemployed. Gotta love free lunch. We had both forgotten that today was Veterans Day though and the place was packed even though we had gone early. Screw Black Friday being the start of Christmas shopping, today is most definitely the day. Just getting near a mall plunged you into a major traffic jam. Though the sales were good...what can I say, I got pulled into the typhoon of traffic. It was just easier to go with the flow. It just ook me way longer to get home than I thought. But what do I care...my days are just packed.
I know my life has been pretty boring. Okay, it's damn boring. But I did get a reprieve last night. The spouse had gotten a pair of passes for a preview showing of Pride and Prejudice. While the spouse had a meeting for school, Mom and I took up the slack and headed out in an awful rain storm. And luckily it was worth it. I thought I had read that book once, but after seeing it, I know I didn't. Mom thought it was going to end badly, but she was confused with the Bronte novels. The music was great, and my only complaint was the volume was set far too high in the theater. But hey, it was free. Highly enjoyable and opening Friday!
Yet another beautiful day. How can you not fault being able to be outdoors in shirt sleeves in November? We could be standing in a foot of snow by now. Of course now that I've actually typed that I've doomed myself. What do I care...I'm typing in the middle of a giant thunderstorm. Enough to rattle the wineglasses, that's fun thunder. Isn't ironic though, in the middle of summer, it's just another sunny day. In November we seem to love the warm weather that much more. Gimme another day of 70 degrees and I'm a happy camper.